She's a pretty lucky kid that I found out as late in the day as I did. Had it been earlier, I might have marched my happy butt up to the school and showed out! When you get me mad enough, the Red comes out! I told her not to quit, that she still has one more year that she can play youth league, but I understand that it's not the same. She'll be the oldest on the team this year, and that just sucks! Another thing that has upset her is only ONE of her friends has called or texted her. I told her that I'm pretty sure that the other girls just don't know what to say to her, but it still hurts her little heart! I don't care if she is already 5'4" at 12 years old, she's still LITTLE!!! The unfairness of the situation is killing me. If I didn't think I'd get thrown in jail, I'd go up to the school tomorrow. But they live in a little hick town (I swear, Mayberry is bigger and better), and I'm pretty sure "the PO-lice" would get called on me. Once she settles down and gets her mad on, I'm gonna talk to her about focusing on which 2 sports she likes the best. It might be easier to pick just 2 and concentrate on those and her schooling.

Aw Tori,
So sorry about your DN. That really sucks.

Not to make light of such a heart breaking event, but it is the failures (especially the ones we didn't deserve) that give us character and strenth - not the success. My guess is the she will take this memory into adulthood and make sure that she never hurts a kid the way she was hurt by those crumby coaches.

Tori, she only has once choice, she has to find some friends that drive and they need to go mudding in the field. :D Just kidding.

On a serious note, looking from the outside this is what I see.

First off let me say that I totally get you being upset, so don't throw egg in my face for what I'm about to say.

Do you know for 100% certain thatthey really told her that they had already made up their minds who they were putting on the team BEFORE THEY HELD TRY OUTS??? I believe when our youngest DD didn't make the cut last year she said the same exact thing. This tells me one of two things... 1) the kids may say that to help themselves cope with the rejection, or 2) the coaches or whomever may have said that to help the kids cope with the rejection. Either option isn't a bad thing IMO. I wish I could be that tactful at times.

Another thing is that she may be better than everyone else on any other day but everyone has an off day. You said that she told you that she admitted that she wasn't as good as she knows she can be, and that the other girls were better than her today.I would assume that the reason for a tryout is to judge your performance at that very moment.

Maybe she just has too much going on in her life at the moment and this could be a good thing. Maybe it'll free up some time that many 13 year old chirrens feel they need.

Mern--it really hasn't been that hard moving. My dad and brother did the bulk lifting on Saturday and then Sunday it was just moving some boxes to storage and clothes to Momma and Deddy's. Vacation however is daunting. I need so much now!! lol

Terri--oh it about killed me to throw out those chips! I had to physically dump the chips out of the bag and into the garbage to know I wouldn't go back after them! OMG girl, I'm a mashed potatoe purist too! All I need is some butter, salt & pepper! I do get a wild hair every once in a while and add some cheese, but don't really need it. Zumba was really fun! I didn't expect to like having an actual instructor, but it did make it a little easier. Also didn't think I would be able to keep up, but surprised myself. I had some difficulties, but made it through. What I really loved was the fact that she used Top40 music, made it easier for me than the traditional Latin tunes. I'm also incredibly jealous of your BB&B gift cards. I could drop a small fortune in that place!!

Deborah--Not sure if i've actually welcomed you yet, so WELCOME TO OUR CRAZY CHATTY BUNCH!

April--Keep the food porn coming!! I love it! I also can throw down on some shepard's pie! The email writing went okay. He's basically asked me to email him routine updates. Nothing special, just the day to day things he's missing. He may get a second email this week ranting about DN1's not making the softball team.

Darlene--hope all is going well!

Ashlie--how precious is DS8??? I need me one of those to tell me I'm skinny and pretty!!

Hope--sorry to hear about your DD issues, and omgoodness sorry about your kitty too!

Pam--thanks! I'm sure she'll learn something from it one day. But THIS day, she's not a happy camper! And rightfully so.

Mike--Go Pimp Daddy Go! Youre cranking out the policies this week! A happy V-Day to you too and what a nice message from a new client!!

Kay--hope all gets worked out with DS. Schools can be incredibly frustrating at times (see my above rant)

Luv--your posts always make me smile. It's the animations I think....

Amy--if youve ever even considered zumba then you'll probably love the classes. I never thought I'd like it, but have a ball with it!

mea--congrats on your pound! feels good doesnt it!

Lizzie--i hope you have a wonderful weekend with BF! Don't worry about the overeating, isn't that was holidays are for!!!

Okay....I think I got everybody. If not, it wasn't intentional. Gonna go to Wal-Mart before I talk myself out of it. I have so much that needs to be done.....

Hell, my car's already in need of a bath, maybe I should take her mudding on the field LOL:eek:

I do know 100% for certain they told her they had made their minds up. She wasn't the only child around when they said it. Her cousin also tried out (and made the team, even though she SUCKS) and heard it too. So, yeah, they said it. And why would you tell a child something like that to help them cope with rejection? All it did was tell her that she shouldn't have tried out in the first place because she wasn't going to get a fair chance anyway.

My whole issue with the situation (other than hurting because she's hurting) is they could have waited another week or two for tryouts. That way it didn't punish the kids like DN1 who were tied up with another sport. It's how things were done when I tried out back in the day. Nothing overlapped! IMO it's the only fair way to give everyone the same shot. And then, after having the same shot as all the other girls, if she still wasn't on her A game, then so be it!

I agree she has too much going on. It's why I DIDN'T want her playing basketball this season, and I told her as much. It distracted her from softball, which she's better at! And, being one of the youngest on the basketball team, she didn't play much anyway.

And besides, you're not supposed to try and be logical about it! You're just supposed to get mad with me!! Geez, don't you know how the female brain operates????:rolleyes:

Hi All!!! Just got back in town last night from vacation and the scale shows an ugly 5# gain in 5 days. I'm hopeful it's mostly water but either way I know it will come back off again.

But it was worth every minute :) Here are a couple of short videos of what we were doing. I'm the diver with the orange tanks :D
Room of Tears - YouTube

Myan Blue - YouTube


okay on to the goals:
1200-1600 calories per day
gym at least 4 times
water 64oz per day
NO cheat foods this week

Kim, I can't get the links to work.

Tori, Yes, I know how y'all women think. I figured you'd like my "original" post but I thought it would be best to change it before hitting submit. I didn't want to to come across as a terror wrist threat to a skool. And... yes I know I spelled them both wrong.

see if they work now i had to redo them

yep they work now. Awesome videos!!! I have a few questions... as usual.:rolleyes:

I love the style of video editing and I've been looking at doing some new projects when I get my gopro. What video editing software is being used in this video? Please don't say Final Cut b/c I can't afford a Mac.:eek: Was twixtor used? I'm really loving the slow motion and high speed videos. I'm dying to try out a nice clean slow motion video but don't know what software is recommended for PC (that isn't a few hundred bucks!). IMO everything looks better in slow mo GOPRO HD and TWIXTOR 2000fps - YouTube
2000fps Puddle Jumping (canon 600d / T3i) Twixtor - YouTube

Heck between a Mac Probook, Final Cut Pro and Twixtor you can spend $4k. :eek: I need something for a baller on a budget.;)

Glad you enjoyed the videos
i know very little about the video and have handed the keyboard over to my BF:

While PC's have caught up quite a bit, IMHO Mac's are much better for video editing. Don't feel you need to spend thousands on a new mac, or final cut, many great mac's can be found pre-owned on ebay or other used sites for great deals. A used $500 macbook pro and a $15 copy of iMovie will work for 98% of most hobbyist editing needs. People have successfully used Twixtor with iMovie, although I personally haven't. I have a 2008 Macbook pro which is probably worth $350 on eBay, which I still use for small iMovie projects.

Keep in mind the slow-motion video you linked to was not made with Twixtor or a similar slow motion software, rather it was shot with a (borrowed)$40,000 Photron SA3 camera at 2500 frames per second.

The one video with the gopro is probably where I'll be starting. I know it can shoot in 120fps and a lot of people use twixtor to get it to 2000fps. I'm going to have to get a new laptop for work and they are saying that our stuff probably won't run on a Mac... and I really don't want to have to buy 2, one for work and another just to make videos. Maybe I'll get lucky and by the time with have to get our own, everything will be Mac compatible for work.
I think my desktop is just too damn old (Dell XPS) to try anything creative.
Thanks a lot for the info. Thanks for putting together some cool videos. There is a talent into doing it and you kinda have to plan ahead when filming to know what the final result we be. Telling a story through the lens of a camera is what I want to get into. I'll probably be hitting you up to pick your brain when I get a little closer to getting what I need.

Too. much. chocolate. You hear that? There is such a thing as too much chocolate. Stupid Valentine's Day. But I took my vitamins, and I'm checking in, so it wasn't ALL bad.

STUPID VALENTINE'S DAY! I know everyone else is all "Oh, Happy V-Day" but not me. My honey is out of country, so BOO HIISSSS!!! There, I think I feel better now.

Checking in for the night. I had to run to WalMart to get some stuff, and spent way too much money (again). It's what happens when I shop while pissed. And no, I still haven't calmed down. The poor child called again while I was shopping. Sobbin' and snotin'! She kept asking why they would let her try out if they knew they weren't going to pick her. Of course, I had no answer for her. So I told her the only thing I could think of. Cause they sucked. Plain and simple, they suck. I wanted to use harsher language, but she thinks I'm perfect, and I don't want to ruin my rep :D She also asked how she's supposed to go to school in the morning and face all of her friends. :( Poor kid wears her heart on her sleeve......

I did well today food wise. Had a decent breakfast and lunch and then a light dinner. I did mindlessly eat a snack when she called the first time, but it was already weighed out so I didn't have to guesstimate.

Health/Fitness
1--Walk M W Th--can't Friday cause we're leaving-didn't walk because I had a better offer, N
2--drink some more water, woman cannot live by diet mountain dew alone-on bottle 2!!, failed miserably
3--get at least 3 good work outs in before leaving-N, N
4--weight loss? I'll try!!-starting weight Monday morning 208.4 UGHH, STILL 208.4

Life
1--make sure all clothes are washed and ready to pack by Wednesday-did 2 loads last night. Probably do 1 more on Wednesday, N
DONE!2--run by Wally World and pick up new eye glass case-tomorrow after work?
3--spend some quality time with Jassie. Bless her little kitty heart, her momma is leavin her for a week-she played with me for ohhhh 2 mintues, then said "uh uh, Gramma gives me TREATS!!!", Yes but she kicked me in the face and cut my cheek and nose
4--pack no later than Thursday night
5--DO NOT GO TO JAIL-so far so good!, not so sure I won't come tomorrow morning

:(Gonna go cry myself to sleep now. I miss CN.....:(

I'm not usually this emotional, it's just been a really rough couple of weeks. And I've always hated V-Day, whether I was in a relationship or not. But this year it's almost like because I knew that I couldn't go out tonight with CN, I really really wanted to. And I was really hoping that I'd have heard from him by now. I don't know. Just too much going on all at once I guess.

I've had a good cry, now I'm gonna go blow my nose and hitch up my big girl britches. No more feeling sorry for myself.

Cassie-I'll run your suggestions by her, but I doubt she will do either. Unlike her aunt, she hates confrontation.

that's the spirit!

What uh? I can't hear you through the sugar buzzing in my head. I'll see your "Too. Much. Chocolate", and raise you by 4 pizza + ice cream parties and half a box of gigantic chocolate muffins. Ugh.

Welcome back from sugar-fest everybody.

Well I did NOT make my calorie goal yesterday, but I suspect I'm not alone there... I went to 4 separate Valentine parties, 3 at school and then I co-hosted one for the Girl Scouts. OMG!!! The local Pizza Hut has really embraced Valentines and gave away 1,000 pizzas yesterday to NPO's for parties, so every last Valentine party I went to had PIZZA and since that was free they also had ICE CREAM, my clothes from yesterday reek of it now, so I'll be doing laundry pronto this morning (and shampooing extra diligently). I limited myself to one slice of pizza and 1/2 cup of ice cream with a couple of Tbls of whipped cream on top. OMG it was really brutal. I did fine through the Kindergarten party, they were playing games. At the 3rd grade party I tried to hold out by slowly eating finger Jell-O, but that almost made it worse. At the 5th grade party I was literally drooling so I got into the veggie tray with both hands, which helped to take the edge off, but didn't do much for my lady-like image. Ugh. At the GS party after school I finally just caved and ate a small slice of pizza, and had a single scoop of vanilla.

Health & Fitness:

1. Calories 1,400/day. 2,032, 1,869
2. 128 oz water daily (Mike you really should have challenged me to something harder, I'm already at 50 for the day and I haven't even worked out yet). 128, 100, I bought a new tumbler, and thought it was 24 oz, but it's only 16, oops.
3. 7 hours exercise. 0 min, 0 min
4. Calorie deficit 5,000. -66, -215 (total -281)
5. Protein 25% or higher. 18%, 18% this is what happens without a plan.
6. Log & report everyday. Y,Y
7. Last Monday 164. Post weight: 165, 164.4, 164.6

Other stuff:

1. Cut all the pieces for the other 3 rabbit cages. N,N
2. Finish my little part of the taxes. N,N
3. Housework 45 min daily +1 load of laundry. YY, NY
4. Call guy about elliptical parts. N,N
5. Distribute 4-H calendar. N,N
6. Finish 3 pieces for Betsy costume. N,N
7. Write down the most wonderful thing that happened. I found a new Starbucks coffee cup to give DH for Valentine's today, and it's darn near perfection. I kept my calories to less than 2,000 on Valentine's Day.

Tori, I'm sorry to hear about your DN, that's a really sucky thing to have happen. I went to a small school, so we never had try-outs for anything, if you could anti up the money to play, you were on the team (save cheerleading). That being said we did have the occasional opportunity to get scholarships if you were really good and couldn't afford the $125 price tag. One of my friends is a serious athlete, who's family situation was something of a nightmare, especially in the finance department. Generally speaking she could get a scholarship to play if she needed one. Basketball was/is her sport of choice, and she's awesome, it's like watching a female version of Larry Bird. I believe if the WNBA had come along sooner she would have played, no lie. But anyway one season basketball came along and she couldn't make the early conditioning practices because she was playing volleyball every night after school, since she'd always played first string (and been the C) on the basketball team she didn't worry about it. So she goes to the first official practice and ends up on second string, doesn't get the scholarship and isn't voted C. Her game wasn't off, it was punishment pure and simple for not demonstrating her commitment to the team. So maybe that's part of what's happening to DN. Just a thought. Although admittedly it seems she's going to learn that one the hardest way possible. Sports people can be like that about commitment, I know the swim coaches HATE for the kids to play other sports that interfere with swimming (which is pretty much all of them right?). They even hate it when kids go to church on Wednesday nights and come in late. The coaches favorite swim cheer includes the words "We don't sing! We don't dance! We just swim, we just swim FAST!". I'm sorry she's hurting, maybe if she writes a letter, she could let them know she's still working on her game and would like to be considered for an alternate if they need one. IDK, it's a tough call that one.

I gotta git going the oldest one is about to be late for safety patrol.

Sorry for all who got burned by Valentines Day. New day, new day, start over. For example, you will see my the first two days of this week, I did not do so well. But today I stretched (and man did I need it!!!) and if all goes well, I will go to the gym. Let's treat ourselves well, peeples!!

My goals this week:
1) stop eating so frigging much: N, N
2) drink some frigging water for goodness sake:N, a little more but N
3) stay on this thread: got on, still here
4) be a stretchy mama: N, N

Good morning ladies. I'm off to a late start, just getting my head off the pillow. Really haven't been "feeling it" lately so I'm still not on the wagon. :9 I'll discuss it more later, if I get a chance to breathe.

I don't know about that "champ" business, you didn't see me plow through that veggie tray like tablespoon in a pudding cup. Thank heavens the kids turned their noses up to it, you're right it could have been much worse. So I'll take that combat medal and wear it with pride. I'd like mine on a hot pink string with flashing letters that say, "Do Not Feed Me". I woke up this morning starving, just like the old carb-aholic days. I immediately ate 4 more Valentine confections, but I think the storm is past and I can limit myself for rest of the day.

Thanks to everyone for saying my soup sounds great :) It's just a really simple soup but I was really inordinately proud of myself for making it, hahaha. I felt like I was a real cook at that moment even though I was just boiling meat and adding root veggies.

Weekly Goals

Food, Exercise, Lifestyle Goals

1) Keep calories between 1200 and 1500, with an average for the week between 1200 and 1300 M: 1,154 T: 1,656 (Week Average: 1,405)
2) Exercise 3-4 times this week M: yes T: No (Week Total: 1)
3) Calorie deficit of at least 5000 M: -1,233 (whoohoo!) T: -155 (Week Total: -1,388)
4) At least 80 oz. of water daily. More is better. M: 80 T: 64
5) Protein average between 25-30% for the week. M: 27% T: 26% (Week Average: 26.5%)
6) In bed by 11:30 every night M: yes T: Not even close
7) No more than one lunch and one dinner out this week (This will be really hard this week, considering V-day) M: no eating out T: Dinner out
8) Weigh in daily and report here!! M: 160.4 T: 159.0 W: 158.6

Other Life Goals

1) Make an effort on my appearance every day M: yes T: yes, through two costume changes, haha
2) Don't sweat the small stuff M: yes T: big yes
3) Get in four job applications M: 1.5 (one was an e-mail inquiring, not an official app) T: 0
4) Write down something wonderful that happens every day M: First parts for new computer arrived! T: All parts for computer arrived and put together - we're having a windows issue, but everything else works!!
5) Perform one random act of kindness a day (Did you all know it's "Random Act of Kindness Week" officially in the USA?? I didn't even know that existed!) M: Helped in delivery of a DVD to someone I don't know. T: Did extra help on an experiment - though that wasn't really random, it was still kindness!!

OMG you guys, I though I ate enough salt to make myself a mini-ocean yesterday according to the fact that we had Romano's Macaroni Grille for dinner, so imagine my entire shock when the scale was DOWN this morning!! My calories are a best-guess since Romano's doesn't provde complete info for nutrition, but I will take that 158.6 and run with it all day!!!!! Hopefully it won't bounce back up suddenly!

Had a great V-Day. Have a very busy day today at work and co-worker drama brewing, so I don't have too much time to chat, but hopefully I can catch up later tonight!!

Happy Wednesday!

~Terri

Health / Fitness Goals ...
1. 100 oz of water M: Yes, T: Yes,
2. Walk at lunch unless freezing & windy (this week may be bad for walking) M: Windy & 27*, T: a little over a mile - still cold out but did 3 laps and went to the store,
3. Carbs less than 50% (new at this one so not setting it too low) M: 56%, T: 52%,
4. Work out 3 times by Friday (I know I won't on the weekend since hubby's home both days) M: No, T: No, W: 1hr,
5. Weigh and post daily M: 262.4lbs, T: 260.4lbs, W: 260.2lbs, Loss this week: 2.2lbs
6. 500 calorie deficit daily M: -1021, T: -1206, Deficit this week: -2227 calories


Life Goals ...
1. One day at a time M: Oh Lord, I need help with this one right now...I'm doing it but it ain't easy, T: Not getting much better,
2. Cross-stitch at least 3 times (can be done on lunch at work to count) M: 45 mins on lunch, T: None,
3. Finish weekend laundry M: No, T: Nope, W: one in the dryer and one in the washer
4. Make sure son's clothes are ready for Valentine's Dance Thursday night.... Awwwww! http://i1237.photobucket.com/albums/...smiley-wub.png M: No, T: No,

Another good day fitness & nutrition wise. This life stuff really sucks though. We did not do anything for Valentine's Day. Actually didn't even tell each other Happy Valentine's Day. First time in 19 yrs. :( We are so emotionally drained right now that it is starting to affect us. I refuse to let it hurt my marriage but right now we are both so edgy that we can pick an argument over nothing. Here is what is going on and I hope nobody takes this to mean that I don't want him to come home..... In white:
Monday afternoon I got a phone call on my way home from work telling me that they have a release date for my son of Friday. Do I think he is ready? Hell no! He hasn't done anything except get on a medicine that keeps his anger from escalating so fast. He is still so angry and over things that shouldn't make him angry. They feel he doesn't need their level of care anymore. I can kind of agree but I don't feel he is ready to be let go home where there are opportunities to be unsupervised at times due to work/school hours. The partial hospitalization program he was attending also told the hospital (NOT ME!) that he would not be allowed to return there for his daily schooling leaving me to find somewhere else for him to go. That can mean up to a week or more of him not having anywhere to go during the day while I'm at work. I expressed my fears about that and was told that if I don't have a solution maybe I should contact CYS. WTF? I am the one doing everything for my son possible to get him the help that he needs and they want me to call CYS? Not happening! I am really thinking that since Friday is a tenative date that when it gets here, he won't be released. And that will give me more time to get him pre-enrolled into another schooling program. It takes time to get the referrals and everything that are needed. I can't just do it by myself. And that sucks! I hate relying on other people to do the things that I could so much better get done on my own. The other thing they are telling me is that even though they feel he is ready, if I don't think he is to just get him home and if I feel it's getting out of control take him back to crisis and have him readmitted. Why not just keep him where he is until he is safe? I just don't get it. I am so frustrated. I want to cry at any given minute. I think the people around me have figured out not to ask what's wrong now. The other thing they are talking about is that it really may not be best for him to come home full time yet but that he doesn't need a hospital so maybe residential treatment for 6months to a year might be best but that could take 3-4 weeks to set up and I should try having him at home for that period of time. They just don't understand what they are doing to my family with all this indecision. We are a very structured family. We do things very similar at all times and don't deal well with upheaval.

Sorry if that doesn't read well and jumps back and forth. It just kind of spilled out once I started. If anything doesn't make sense please ask and I will clarify because I come off wrong a lot of times without knowing it.

Now aside from all of this I have to report an unbelievable act of willpower. This morning one of my vendors popped in with a delicious smelling sausage croissant from Burger King for me. Do you know how long it has been since I had one of those flaky buttery croissants? I smiled, said thank you so much. Then after he left I picked up the bag and carried out to the other department and asked if anyone wanted it. I gave it to our temp. She is a tiny little lady from the Philepines (sp?). I was so temped! I just knew I couldn't do that to myself. It would have cost me more calories than my hour long workout burned this morning!!! :eek:

Julie ... Good job on yesterday even with lunch out with coworkers!

Mern ... We had leftovers for Valentine's dinner too. More shepherd's pie. And there are still 2 servings in the fridge.

Tori ... I feel for your neice. I was the girl who was the star basketball player all through elementary school because I was so tall but couldn't make the team because I "wasn't fast enough" <~read as "Too fat" when I got the junior high and all my friends that tried out made it. It does just suck. I do think that maybe writing them a letter even if she doesn't mail it would be therapeutic....Sorry you are missing CN. He is someone you can bounce your thoughts off of from what I gather and now you are going to have to find someone else for that. Other than us of course! :)

Kim ... Your videos are gorgeous! I am so jealous! Just wanted to put that out there. The only ocean I have ever been in is up to my armpit in my living room tank!!!

Kay ... Too much chocolate? Did you bump your head girl? I don't think there is any such thing!!

Amy ... WTH were you thinking? 4 parties? OH my Gawd! You made it through without a bruise in my opinion!

Terri ... I'm so glad you got a scale drop despite your salt....I hope your coworker drama is nothing major. It sucks to have tension in the workplace.

Is there a shrink in the house?
 

I know that I've been super busy and haven't been planning ahead, which is PART of my problem.

Basically here's what I'm going through...

I think I may be a little obsessive and possibly compulsive and this may be my problem with getting back on the wagon. This may not make much sense and maybe I'm looking at it the wrong way.

When I began, I was obsessed with eating right and losing weight. Been there, done that. Next step is to maintain... been there, done that. I wanted to do a race, might as well sign up for a 1/2 marathon right? Been there, done that... again and again... and again. I think 5 or 6 halfs. I think I may be losing interest in eating right. I don't think I'll even lose interest in working out.

My new focus is in a totally different direction. Getting this bonus, wanting to get a new camera and get into making some fun/creative videos.

I feel like I have tunnel vision and good clean eating is slowly slipping out of my tunnel.

Tori asked me if I felt I was susceptible to gain the weight back. I absolutely know I am. She asked if I was okay with it. I'm not. So how do I make it a priority?

I know when I get a bike, I will be refocused on being fit b/c when you are on a bike... all eyes are on you, expect for the idiot that pulls out in front of you.

Good morning all! Yeah, it's bordering on afternoon, but technicalities people! I'm in a decidedly better mood this morning. I had my tear fest last night and I'm done with it. April, I'm sorry to hear about your troubles today. It can be incredibly frustrating when you're trying to do all the right things, but it seems like it's all blowing up in your face. Keep your chin up, and do what you know is right. And WOOT WOOT for saying no to that buttery delicious crossiant from BK. I still have one of the guys in our store who will occasionally bring breakfast, and it's so hard to say no. So I've taken to accepting his gift and then regifting it to one of my drivers on their way out the door. That way the coworker doesn't see anyone other than me eat, if you get my drift.

Thanks everyone for understanding my frustration over DN1's not making the team. It just seems like she's being punished for being good at whatever she does. Granted, she wasn't "the best" yesterday, but she's still an overall better player and more consistent than the other girls in the long run. One of the coaches actually came to a youth league game last year and kept raving about how good she was. So, I agree with Amy, it's like because she couldn't come to the OPTIONAL conditioning, she's being punished. She called again this morning, and said that she was scared to go to school this morning because she doesn't want to get made fun of for not making the team. And I don't really think that any of her friends would do that, but still, I understand what she's going through. I just wish I could make it all better, but I can't. See this is why I don't need kids of my own, I can't handle it!!

April, CN is the one I bounce things off of. Always has been, and that stupid bastard had to go and leave. :) j/k I know that he didn't want to leave, it's his job. It still makes it harder when I have these things come up and he's not there to call. I'm gonna have to find another sounding board. Besides you guys that is, y'all do a great job and I am uber thankful for all of y'all's advice and support. I'm gonna go hunt me down some cowboy boots now. I was given the cutest dress by my SIL and cowboy boots would look darling with it.....catch up with ya later!

I just had to share this. My silly cat is a bird watcher. She gets all excited and her tail starts twitching when the birdies are in the yard. Well knowing this, my Deddy went out and bought a couple of feeders and put them right outside the bedroom window. (yeah, you read that right, my dad bought bird feeders for my CAT). Anyway, she was so excited this morning cause it looked like we were in the middle of an aviary, and I snapped the following pics.
http://i1143.photobucket.com/albums/...atching2-1.jpg
She's so precious....

How cute is she?! I love that orange stripe from the corner of her eye!

I thought maybe it was insurance too. So I called them. I had a nice long discussion with them on whether they were requiring him to be released. They tell me that it is not them. Are they lying? Maybe. But they say they are not requiring his release. They do evaluate his placement every 5 days but have nothing in their records indicating that he needs to step down out of that facility. ... The partial program he was attending just called me. They are, now, not ruling out that he can return there when released. They were acting on my anger that he ran away from there starting this whole process. They said they thought I didn't want him to return there. ... I have a case manager. She is supposed to help me find other options for his care, set up an IEP, etc. Mostly she just nods and agrees with whatever I say and does nothing then. ... Tuesday we have a CASP (or CAST) meeting involving everyone from his home school district to the inpatient facility that he is currently in. They say it is to decide the best course of action for him. I just wish this meeting could have happened before a release date. But I guess that would only make sense to me. :rolleyes: Partial is still also talking about recommending a RTF for him. Honestly, I don't want that. But if it would give him a nice stable place to be and they wouldn't have to step down his care because of the length of time that he is there, it might be a thinkable option. And if they do allow him to return to partial that would solve my day time leaving him alone problem until RTF could be established.

So much to think about and really seems like nobody has any answers. It is all maybe, probably, somewhat. I just want a definite answer on anything!

Didn't bump my head, but I gave myself a migraine with all the chocolate. Of course, having a migraine meant I didn't exercise at all.

I feel for you. I hope today is a better one for you and yours. Sorry to be late in responding to that. Your kitty is so super cute.

nope, not spoiled at all! What's funny is I don't do most of the spoiling. It's my mom and dad. I swear, she's gonna be as big as the house if they don't stop feeding her so much....
I love her stripes too! She actually has one on each side. I took her to get her nails clipped a month or so ago and the groomer kept asking if she had been scratching a lot on her face, cause it "looks like she has dried blood near her eye". It was hard to keep from laughing, cause clearly even in pictures you can tell it's just part of her markings. SMH

Oh migranes suck! I didn't exercise either, but it was just because I was having a pity party, at least YOU had an excuse :)

Thanks Hope! It has been a better day. It's all about perspective, and I have it again. Was just feeling dumped on by the world yesterday. Today is sunshine and unicorns!:D

Tori, very pretty cat.

Speaking of pets. I was a bad daddy. My baby Mytsie has this little pink sock that she's had since she was like 8 weeks old. She's like a baby with her blankie. When it comes to stuffed animals, she plays rough and destroys them. Some of y'all know, y'all have seen the crime scene in the past. Her sock, she is so delicate with it, she's had it for 3 years and it's a part of who she is.
For some crazy reason pissed our bed. I stripped the sheets and threw them in the washer. When I took them out the washer I noticed that I accidentally washed her sock. It must have been wrapped up in the sheets. I dried it and handed it back to her and all she can do is sit there and look at it like "wait, where did this imposter come from?"

haha, I did that with Jas' blanket. She still won't sleep on it. Now she's taken to sleeping on my blanket

Popping in . . . will chat more later . . .
 

and I'll post my weekly goals later. Just keeping myself accountable.

Yesterday ~ was a mixed day for me. For instance I ate high calorie wise, but went over water intake goal. Did not exercise -- felt somewhat not well.

Today so far ~
*Logging in eating
*Walked 3 mi & did Lower body & back/abd strength training.
*Felt sick after exercising. I'm guessing it was low blood sugar so I'll need to make sure I have a little bit of something before I exercise.

Missions:
Tuesday -- Eat minimum of 3 servings of low carb vegetable. Accomplished:)
Wednesday -- Drink 64 oz water (Normal goal is 40 oz)
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On an e-mail today it was brought to my attention that it's 15 weeks until Memorial Day. So my next date in site is Memorial Day --> Aim for 20 lbs lost because of Focus & Fitness.

Telling myself: One step at a time. I'll come back later & read thru posts & respond!

Atta girl!!! Way to go!!

Grrr why am I so hungry?

I've been asking myself the same thing today! Maybe it's going around....

I'm now at BF's house and we are enjoying a glass of champagne and a movie. We had a good dinner, healthy with strawberries for dessert.

April. I hope things work out for you and your son, I know how frightening it is to have someone at home who still needs help and professional supervision. You are doing your very best to do all the right things and you should know that sometimes being mum and giving in is not the best option for your son and ultimately all your family.

Tori. So you are saving for your own place, I bought my home many years ago, it is not large and it's not in the poshest of neighbourhoods but it's mine and I have slowly improved it over the years. I hope you find your little piece of earth that you can call your own.

Mike. Is New Orleans really like Treme?

Lizzie, I've never watched it but I hear it is.

Suoer fast check in. I'm still at the office, running late for the gym. Will have to go straight from work and workout in jeans. :( I did write 2 today. That makes 4 for the week.