Things I hate about...

Being fat..
1. Hearing I have a pretty face.
2. Marks on my body from tight clothes.
3. Being out of breath.
4. Calves burning just from walking up the hill in my backyard.
5. That I missed out on playing with my kids when they were little because I was so inactive.
6. Squishing my hubby if I took the top.
7. Irritable Bowel Syndrome
8. Not being able to tell I was pregnant either time.


Losing the weight...
1. The fact that I was so fat that nobody really notices I have lost almost 50 lbs!
2. Jeans that don't fit right on my legs because my belly and legs don't match yet.
3. Counting all those darn calories.
4. Working out even though nobody else is.
5. Sweating...I hate to sweat.
6. Working for a food company where it is so easy to find something to eat at all times.
7. Knowing that I still have xxx amount to lose, even though I have come so far.

MAYBE WE SHOULD ALSO ADD/START A LIST ABOUT THINGS THAT ARE GOOODDDD ABOUT GETTING THINNER. We can still vent, but we can also inspire each other!!

Here's mine from yesterday:

• Arugula. Oh how I love thee, arugula, the bitter, pungent, flavorful zing you add to my salads to make them less boring!!!
• Converting comfort foods to "loving foods" that still comfort while being healthful. Did that yesterday!!
• Chalene Johnson (TURBO JAM) -- that woman is infectuous but not abnoxious!!! At first 10 lbs down, I will reward myself with more Chalene!!!
• That virtous feeling you get when you have ACHIEVED YOUR GOALS!!!
• How much better I sleep!
• How much better my "morning constitutional" is (I know, gross, but you KNOW what I mean!!!)
• Better dreams!

I can't wait until this list includes smaller clothes :-)

Later ladies!!!

What I love about losing weight...

1. Catching sideway glances of myself in a mirror.
2. The way my hubby is so proud. The boys too but the hubby says so every day! :)
3. Compliments from people on clothing that I have owned for a year. Now I guess I make the clothes better than they did before.
4. Not running to the bathroom halfway through a meal due to IBS
5. Bumping into people you haven't seen in a while.
6. Actually WANTING to work out.
7. Being able to shop without picking something simply because it fits.

Love that list!!!!!!!!!!

TOP TEN Things I love about losing weight:

1. Getting the jaw dropping "OMG you look GREAT!".
2. Shopping in the regular sizes, not the fat girl racks.
3. Having the energy to do what I could only imagine doing before.
4. Having people excited to see me, so they can ask dieting and/or fitness advice. I also occasionally run up against the "did you have surgery" question, that's always funny to dispel. I've had to show that my stomach is scar free more than once.
5. Pulling on single digit size clothing like it was custom made for me.
6. Hearing people refer to me as a "hottie" or getting whistled at. I'm not keen on getting the "once over" from complete strangers, but it's better than getting the look of dismissal that I'd gotten for years.
7. Having people comment on my muscle tone at the gym. Believe me, it's always been there, it just was covered with fat before.
8. Having my (tightwad) husband insist that I go shopping for some new clothes because everything in the closet is way to big to wear out of the house.
9. Being included in the thin & fit crowd. I never had anybody offer to be my workout partner until after I'd lost like 80 lbs., even though I had been going to the gym and exercise classes for years and years.
10. Being able to hop on any old ride at an amusement park with my kids without having to worry that I would be too fat for the seat or the safety bar.
11. The bedroom, 'nuff said.

On the hate list:

• Waking up after one night of choreography and feeling SHATTERED!
• Seeing my rolls in the double mirrors that are a dance studio.
• Doing things right and the scale not moving
• THE CONSTANT NEGOTIATION about eating this/not eating that.
• Being to tired to cook, but not wanting to order YET ANOTHER GRILLED CHICKEN SALAD from some convenience place. (seriously can ANYONE COME UP WITH ANYTHING HEALTHY BESIDES GRILLED CHICKEN SALADS?)

Cranky, cranky. cranky!

Things I love about getting thinner:

• Going into normal-size clothing stores and having the salesgirls offer to help me, and finding out that there are STYLES to clothing and not just "the green sack versus the blue sack"
  
• Slipping on a pencil skirt and going "Goddamn, my hips look good."
  
• Not dreading looking in the mirror when I'm naked before a shower
  
• The bedroom, for sure
  
• The overall sense of confidence I get. It's suddenly easier to spend time on myself, and I don't feel guilty or get that sense of "What's the use?" when I doll up.
  
• The sense of accomplishment from working out hard, or working out more than I once could have.
  
• All the comments of "this looks great on you!" Same clothing as before - different body!
  
• It made me learn how to cook. I am forever grateful.
  
• Not hearing the floor pound under me when I walk, haha!

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU! I needed that!

I tend to hate wood floors because they really do make that thudding sound when you walk on them. You expect to see a glass of water vibrating like in the Jurassic Park movie.

HATE:

**Negotiations with food. STILL my issue.

**Feeling stuck in the "I used to be so fit" mentality all the time which I know is not productive, but I miss that woman!

LOVE:
Grape tomatoes :-)