I was always a chubby child - although looking back on photos, I was nowhere near as big as I thought I was! I always hung around with people who were smaller and slighter than me, so I always felt like a monster.
In the past 9years, I've put on probably 5 stone. I had a child and my partner left when I was pregnant. I think I wallowed in the sadness of being a single mam for far too long. My son (9) is the love of my life and I have focussed so much on him over the past 9yrs, that I completely ignored myself. There were days when he would eat fruit and veg in abundance and I would snack on the sandwiches, rather than sit down with him and eat the same healthy food myself. In fact, I rarely sat down with him to have a meal - I'd ensure he had a good healthy breakfast/dinner/tea and look on that time as a time when I could clean the house/iron/do some washing while he was occupied. How sad is that?
I also developed a liking for wine - and was definitely on a slippery slope! But getting home from work in the evenings and having that first glass to 'unwind' became something to really look forward to for me.
I might add that even though the past 9years have been difficult, I obviously found strength from somewhere as I bought my own home and got a new job in the past 4years.
So now, I am feeling great, not drinking and eating healthy and exercising. The transformation in my mood has astounded me - my son has even commented on me being very happy all the time
. We now sit down together for every meal and I am loving it