I am new here too and struggling. Speaking of the cancer- my father had merkel cell carcinoma and with the treatments he was on, he gained so much weight and water he did not even look like the same person from one month to the next. I managed to gain weight right along with him. Is the cancer in remission?
After battling with my weight and my unhealthy relationship with food, I realize the most important thing is to be extremely patient with myself.
Good Luck on your journey!
Thoughts and prayers