Back after losing my way
 

Does anyone else do this? Set themselves a goal and then just sabotauge all efforts to achieve it; once I've messed it up so badly that I can call myself a total loser then I want to achieve the goal again knowing that I can't.

After setting myself the goal of losing weight before I am 50 I start well and it all looks good, then 4 months ago I lost my way and despite being diabetic and having high blood pressure I just stop exercising and start eating badly. Now my goal is unachieveable I want it again and beat myself up every day for failing. Of course doing that makes me miserable and want to eat!!

Despite all that I am back here and going for it once again, I have approximately 50 more pounds to lose and I am a compulsive eater and exercise hater, I need some support, sympathy and advice.

Ice, try and set smaller goals for yourself, so that it isnt so overwhelming. Celebrate when you achieve the small ones. Can be as simple as

I will walk for 30 minutes today
I will not eat (insert your favorite high calorie food) this week
I will drink X oz. of water today

these will all be small changes torward achieving that ultimate goal. I know for me, I could never look at the finish line, because its too daunting, but I could try to lose 1 lb. in a week, or exercise 3 x in a week, something like that.

PLEASE DONT GIVE UP. You are here, which means you are on the journey. Good luck and keep on keeping on!

Don
 

Chris's suggestions are right on target.
It may be that your overall goal of 50lbs gets a little overwhelming. Really, isn't the goal to be fit and health? So rather than using the scale as your measurement, how about good habit goal like Chris suggested: water, walking, using the stairs, clearing out the junk food from the house, that sort of thing. And maybe put the scale away for a while.

PS never mind the title. Fitday decided to post before I had completed the thought. It should say:
DON'T QUIT

I do this everytime I 'blow' my diet, usually because I'm stressed. If I'm not stressed, bad stress or good stress (excitement), I can do much better. But it doesn't take much to throw me off track. I have just a few bottom-line items now, and if I aim to stick to them, then at least I know I've kept those goals in sight, even if I don't lose weight. Then, the calorie counting and control over my eating gets kind of layered on top of those goals.

I guess what I'm saying is: prioritize. Do it in a way that is clear and measurable and then even if you mess up at some level, you'll know you've still achieved something for your health.