I haven't checked in for a while.. after spending a week camping with teenage girls and coming home in tim eto celebrate the 4th the scale is KICKING my trash... I am also beating myself up.. I haven't been below 140 in over 10 years and every time I hit that number it's like I get scared of succeeing and so I totally blow my eating plan ... we are wanting to get pregnant in about 3 months and I really want to start my last pregnancy at 130.. why do I destroy myself... GRRRR