I relate and feel your pain, too. 3 decades ago I used to wear a size 0 and complained that it was so hard to find anything in that size. At my highest weight I was wearing 28's and still complaining that it was hard to find things in my size since I'm so short.
Ah well, we're on a journey to get to the sizes that we'll be the most comfortable in. The motivation to wear a certain size is a good one. I'll be happy to wear 10's again, which is one of my goals. I agree with what others have said about having a friend to keep you on track, but if you don't have anyone in person, just log onto Fitday and join some of the weight & exercise challenges here. There's also a wonderful community in the woman's only forum to help keep you motivated and who'll offer you understanding or a swift kick when needed
. You can do it JOELVEN2. Like you mentioned, it's all about our habits and lifestyles and changing those are always challenging. We won't do it perfectly, there will be ups and downs, but we can do it.