Ok... so, nutritionally I didn't make the best choices. I can honestly swear on a thousand bibles that NO amount of carbs or sugar passed my lips... despite being surrounded by solid chocolate cups (the size of three or four peanut butter cups together) filled with raspberry chocolate cream.... They literally were the size of a deck of cards.... and I wanted one SOOOOO badly. Not only that, there were cream cheese frosted fudge brownies and white chocolate dipped cookies... dear Jesus I prayed for strength.
Dinner last night at a restaurant for a dear friend who passed away unexpectedly. We were raising money to send her body back home to New York. The only thing on the menu that wasn't deep fried was the turkey bacon club on toasted sourdough on a HUGE pile of french fries, with ranch dressing... are you serious!? I ordered it, and just ate the insides... NOT ONE FRIE, NOT ONE PEICE OF BREAD TOUCHED MY LIPS. Bar-b-que today with burgers and potato salad... just ate the patty with a little mustard.
So why am I complaining? Because I didn't really eat enough nutritious food AND I had three glasses of Bud light... dang it. But coming from someone who would have 2 LARGE AND FULL glasses of red wine every night for YEARS, I don't feel too bad. This is the 2nd time I've had any alcohol since I started this diet... about 5 and a half weeks. And it is freaking hard just because in my circle of friends and family, alcohol and fatty, decadent food it EVERYWHERE AND WITH EVERYTHING.
This is a new week, it's Sunday and I will do better.
Thank you to everyone who gave me support with my son, he's feeling better with 3 more days of antibiotics. No more seizures but you bet we will be on the watch for the next few years. Thanks for reading. Somehow knowing I would have to come and confess all my sins on FitDay made me strong enough to resist those raspberry chocolate deck of cards... I know I'm going to be dreaming about those beauties tonight.
Oh... and on a kick ass note - part of that fundraiser was a silent auction.... I won 5 sessions with a personal trainer for $30. Yea baby!
I don't have to lose 83 pounds... I have to lose 10 pounds 8.3 times.
Starting Weight: 307.................Starting Weight: 430
Current Weight: 233..................Total Lost: 197
Goal Weight: 150.......................Weight to go: 83
Weeks at FitDay (returning): 1