The Biggest Loser Show
They are doing a casting call in my town next weekend. One of my coworkers told me the next time they were here she was going to take me there, she thinks with my personality that they would be sure to take me.
Well, I got a message from her saying that they were going to be here and she wanted me to go and she would support me in anyway she could. I know her heart is in the right place but I can't do it.
At my age and shape I couldn't stand up in front of those people in the outfits they make them wear for the weigh ins. Not only do I have the huge stomach, but I also have horrible stretch marks from having children that run from under my breasts all the way down. They also look like scars rather than stretch marks.
Plus it would be my luck to wind up with Jillian and I would be crying all the time. My coworkers think I'm tough, but I'm not. I get hurt easily and even though she said it was for my health and well being and was being all positive about it, I couldn't help but be hurt that she suggested it.
I just needed an outlet to vent because I can't tell her that she hurt me (its not who I am, I hold stuff like that in). I know she is going to try and convince me, but somehow I have to convince her that I just can't do it.