Everyone, thanks to all of you who posted personal messages of encouragement to me. I DO need to concentrate on TODAY. beating oneself up over the past does no good. I'm doing baby steps, but I'm doing it. I won't give up.
I haven't had time to catch up on the posts. I haven't logged my food, either, but I know from experience I'm OK on my carbs, sat fat, and cholesterol; not so sure if I got enough protein or fiber, though. I was right about dreading getting on the scale. I predicted I'm back up to about 230 and when I weighed a couple days ago I was 228.5. But I CAN say, my highest weight ever was 246, so I HAVEN'T gained ALL of it back.
Kudos to all of you who are doing well and huge hugs of encouragement to those who are not. WE CAN DO THIS!