If you are not joking about your aspiration to gain weight to be on Biggest Loser, then you most likely have some emotional issues that would best be addressed by professional counseling rather than an Internet support group.
If you have a caretaker, talk to that person about your concerns so that he/she may help you seek counseling. Most county human services departments have resources for counseling for free or on a sliding fee scale to those who cannot afford it.
I can't help you any further, but I will keep you in my prayers for acquiring the counseling you need. Best wishes.
Age 68, 5 feet tall
Highest weight ever in the fall of 2010 246 lbs.
FitDay starting weight 1/17/2011 240 lbs.
Weight 6/25/2014 233 that obviously included a lot of water retention
Weight9/5/2013 226 with an eye on "Onederland"
Last edited by Mern; 02-16-2013 at 09:16 PM.