If you are not joking about your aspiration to gain weight to be on Biggest Loser, then you most likely have some emotional issues that would best be addressed by professional counseling rather than an Internet support group.
If you have a caretaker, talk to that person about your concerns so that he/she may help you seek counseling. Most county human services departments have resources for counseling for free or on a sliding fee scale to those who cannot afford it.
I can't help you any further, but I will keep you in my prayers for acquiring the counseling you need. Best wishes.
Age 67, 5 feet tall
Highest weight ever 246 lbs. in the fall of 2010
FitDay starting weight 1/17/11 240 lbs.
Note: doctor's scale 4 lbs. lighter than my home scale. I go by my home scale weight
Weight 9/11/2013 234
Last edited by Mern; 02-16-2013 at 10:16 PM.