I know exactly how you feel. I am in the same boat, almost same height but with a lot more to lose. My daughter turns two in April and I can still fit into my maternity clothes. I used to exercise all the time. I was a four throughout college but now... I'm always tired, with no motivation. I try to make healthy eating choices but I've never followed through. I feel so bad about myself. I want drastic change. I heard a quote from a movie- nothing changes unless you change it. It's so true, I just have to focus and stop allowing obstacles to derail my progress. I can see the finish line, but I can't expect miracles and overnight progress. I also have to stop letting others dictate what size I should be and how much I should weigh, and learn to say I'm doing it for me, too. Anyways, good luck...