So I have Polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) and i had a baby 4 years ago. it is really difficult to lose weight. I am trying to eat healthy, like having small meals 5 times a day (breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner) but it just isnt working. I am actually gaining weight instead of losing! what the heck am i doing wrong?!?!??? it is so incredibly frustrating that sometimes i just binge because i hate myself so much. its weird, not sure why i binge when getting fat is what im avoiding... but i do. ugh. i hate myself. I can't believe even after 4 years after having my baby girl, i still cant lose weight? everyone i know that had kids are back to their fabulous selves again, except me.