Feeling self conscious after a large weight loss or gain is totally understandable. Your body feels foreign, and people begin to react to you differently. It's sad but true, appearance DOES matter. A lot of the time, being overweight becomes a shield from the outside world, especially attention from the opposite sex. That can be very threatening, especially if it's never happened before. Glad you're seeing a counselor.
How often are you eating? If you're having blood sugar issues, high protein and small frequent meals may help. Or eating your largest meal early in the day, especially if the crash is happening late afternoon/early evening.
If I keep starting over, eventually it will stick, right?
Current weight: 140
Goal weight: 135