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Old 07-22-2012, 09:22 AM   #16 (permalink)
ToriD1012
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Okay, so here I am again, overweight. Three years ago I actually did it... got down to size 4 (I'm a lady) and 145 pounds. Now I'm right back where I started, 208 pounds and size 14. So, although I am the same person inside, I have had such different experiences having been fat and thin, and I've learned that thin girls definitely have more fun, and I want to be thin again. So here are some little tidbits of info that are really getting under my skin about being overweight, and I thought I'd share them.
I'm the odd one out with everyone else's replies (not really surprising to those who know me well), so I'll break it down point by point.

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1. Getting dressed totally sucks for a fat girl. I used to pull ONE outfit out of my closet when I was thin. It looked great. I was ready to go. Nowadays, I've got half the closet pulled onto the bed before I finally just settle on an outfit that feels good. Then, I try not to look into any mirrors as I go about my day.
I've always LOVED fashion! Even at my heaviest I loved to shop. I could spend hours finding things, trying them on, etc etc. Even now that I'm considerably thinner it takes forEVER for to pick an outfit. I have to try pretty much my entire wardrobe on twice before picking something.

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2. Men treat me totally different than they did when I was thin. They held doors for me. They joked around with me. Do I want guys hitting on me? NO WAY! I'd just like it if when I walked into AutoZone, the guy behind the counter would look up from his copy of PlayBoy and wait on me. That would be nice. I'd like to be treated like a normal person, not some disgusting blob who has let herself go. Men are naturally shallow and their standards are high, and no, I don't want to go through life being unattractive to them. People may say that's not right and I should be doing this for myself. But think about it, and you'll see what I mean, ok?
I've never had a problem attracting men. I think it's what Joe said, it's confidence. I've always thought highly of myself, and I never let my weight affect how I felt about who I am. I joke around with the guys at work, and in bars etc, just as much now as I did 75 lbs ago. It's about being comfortable in your own skin. People pick up on that whether you know it or not.
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3. My house is a mess right now. When I was thin, I kept my house in order. I felt good enough to do it. When I'm completing a project at home, I rarely feel hungry. Funny how a clean house and a "clean" body go hand in hand.
I still have problems keeping a "clean" house by my mother's standards. It is in no way shape or form dirty, but could be neater. Heavy, not so heavy, housework isn't my thing. And I won't get started on my car
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4. My kids and I had fun when I was thin. We ran together. We went out and did things outside. Now the poor kids are subject to sit in the house becauseoverweight Mommy doesn't feel like doing anything. That's not fair. And now my older son is starting to put on pounds as well which is not good for him at all.
I don't have kids of my own, but I do have nieces and nephews that are like my own. I always have and always will do with them. I've never really been super inactive. I just had a problem with food.....I LOVE IT!!!!
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5. Photos. I could have screamed when I saw myself in my sister's wedding photos a week ago. And of course all those photos went on facebook, for everyone to see. So they see the fat I was trying to hide by only posting pics that were flattering and didn't show my double chin were hoaxes. I feel a lot like a big, fat version of Pinnochio right now. It's very embarrassing. My husband wants to get photos done at Christmas. We need to, but if I see anymore fat photos of me, I'm going to die.
photos don't bother me so much. They are what they are. They are of a point in my life that I look back on and say WOW, I did that to myself. I look back at them from time to time, especially when I'm having a particularly bad day (yes, I do have them...we all do) and I don't see the fat, ugly, disgusting person that I was. I look at them and see how far I've come. I use them as fuel to not get back to that unhealthy person. I still love who I was then though. They're memories of places I've been and things I've done, nothing more. They're a moment in time. Those moments can't be changed. And why would I want them to. Everything I've done, seen, and been a part of has shaped who I am today.
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When you're overweight, life is a struggle. The only thing some people see is my fat. So I have to get rid of it and get my life back. I'm hoping this site helps me. I am ready to feel good again, and be the person I feel like inside.
I think life is a struggle for everyone, overweight or not. We can't change how other people see things or what they think. We can change what WE think and how WE see things. My advice to you is this....stop caring what others think. Love who you are NOW, and who you're going to be when you reach goal. Cause you're MAGNIFICENT JUST HOW YOU ARE!
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