You deserve a mellow day Pam.
Thinking about motivation, when it does not come from yourself community can fill the gap, that's one of the values of this forum, and also of the staff at the Y who remembers me. I woke up a little before the alarm thinking "I've got Spinning class today".
Very challenging class, several times I figured "I'll just take the next sprint off, oh why not start it, you can always stop, oh, only ten seconds more...". No energy at the end, so just a nice slow stretch.
I've decided to label from now to January 1 "maintain don't gain", if I lose, great, but the focus will be on not letting any scale creep occur.