Gotta love your mindset, Mary!
The turbinado sugar is sometimes marketed as Sugar in the Raw; do you have that? A health food store or natural food market may have it if your grocery doesn't.
As for being right about the sweetener, no one really knows for sure. There is a ton of conflicting information, so maybe just try to read up on it, educate yourself, and make the best choice for you.
Agave syrup is another good option; it's natural, and does not hit your bloodstream with sugar the way refined sugar does. Calories are similar to sugar or honey.
And now that you don't have to be perfect, you can be good.