I was having that issue as well VirusInside. I wasn't gaining so I could justify it to myself that it was okay to have a little extra. I finally had to just take two steps back and put me in my place and let myself know that it was not okay and that if I kept it up that I could figure on weighing 292 (or more) for the rest of my life. Most likely the 'more'.
It is not an easy journey. I feel for ya! Keep posting. Maybe come over to the weekly motivation thread in the women's forum and make yourself some goals that you can update daily on whether you are meeting them or not. That thread is not just women. Mike comes there every week. It is great for accountability.