i have always been on the smaller size. that is until i got divorced and had a brain anuerysm. my life started to take turn when my husband of 21 years and i split. then in feb. of 2010 i had brain surgery to repair a ruptured anuerysm. was out of work for 4 months and gained over 50 lbs. i recently decided that i'm tired of not having the energy to do anything and wanting to sit in my own little cave. i'm not even 40 yet (close but can still say i'm in my thirties) and feel 20 years older. Psst. no good. i want to live long enough to see my sons get married and have kids. i refuse to walk down the same path my mother has.