@ alicia i have been rationalizing these past few years because both my parents were and are extremely obese for most of my life. but i just realized that at 27 i am not yet old (no matter how i feel!) and that to give up now and resign myself to my parents fates is ridiculous. and i dont know if i could go on the rest of my life feeling as bad about myself as i do. i know i am loved also but ive felt like its not really deserved when i am the way i am now. i feel like and embarassment to myself and my husband and family. i dont want to feel that way anymore. thank u so much for the kind words
every tiny little bit helps!