I can tell you from personal experience, living in chronic pain will sap your strength and your willpower. I've been dealing with tendonitis and arthritis since my first daughter (now 6) was a year old. I've been through several rounds of physical therapy, more specialists than I can count, antidepressants, and at one point even cut my hair super short because I could not hang on to the brush long enough to care for it long. It wasn't until I started on Celebrex 1 1/2-2 years ago that I could function well enough to have a chance at sticking with this. I've been at this 13 months and though I'm still not at my goal, the scale is still creeping ever so slowly in the right direction, and I haven't gained anything back despite some major stresses in my life. Moving out is a major first step in claiming your life as your own and taking back control. Nothing makes you feel worse than someone criticizing you about things you aren't happy with. Eating because you're depressed, then having someone say stop eating you're too fat... well that just makes you want to say "F it" and eat everything that's not nailed down. Been there, done that. Walking is a wonderful habit to get into. I used to walk for miles and hours, not an option with small kids, I miss it terribly. It's great for clearing your head too. There are things I cannot have in this house, or I will eat the whole package in times of stress. Cheese is a bigtime dangerous item for me. Ice cream tubs are dangerous too, I buy fudgesicles and miniature sized novelties instead. After a year, I'm a heck of a lot better at eyeballing portions, but I still lean heavily on my food scale and measuring cups to keep it accurate. I don't forbid myself anything, because if I "can't" have something I'm going to binge at some point, so I am very strict with portion control on the sweets instead. I used to eat Oreos 8 or more at a time, now 2 is enough, but that sure did not happen overnight.
Long story short, this is a trial and error process for all of us here. Realistically, it will probably take months to figure out what type of person you are and what works for you. But here's the thing, it's not an all-or-nothing situation. Pick one battle at a time, one step at a time, each day just a little different and a little better than it was the day before, and eventually, those little steps add up to a big journey. If you fall, you fall. Doesn't matter how many times you fall, as long as you get up just one more time. You don't have to change it all overnight.
If I keep starting over, eventually it will stick, right?
Current weight: 140
Goal weight: 135