Finally! Someone else has discovered for herself that diets never never never work as a permanent solution. I was like you, 20 years ago, and now I've been Naturally Thin without dieting for all that time. I highly recommend you read HOW TO BECOME NATURALLY THIN BY EATING MORE or BREAKING OUT OF FOOD JAIL by Jean Antonello, R.N., B.S.N. These books can be found on Amazon. Good luck! Being diet-free is a huge blessing! After you read either of these, you will make a paradigm shift in your whole thinking about food AND you will (eventually) be Naturally Thin, eating as much as your body needs and never starving yourself or overexercising.