Thank you. I know I can eventually make my goal. This event is what made me angry enough with myself to actually decide to try.
I'm pretty sure the relationship will fizzle. He's nearing 40, has a pot belly, is gray and losing quite a bit of his hair. She's 23 and doesn't even have a job. He's supporting her right now. He called the other day to tell me how he just found her an apartment and how they are looking at cars for her.
Once upon a time we both looked good. He's never stopped thinking that he looks good while I did. I want to look good again, for me and for a bit of revenge. I think I deserve something fun in my life and this is my goal. Losing the weight will be hard enough as it is without a long term goal in mind.